Once a killer always a killer?

Tilikum is back. Don't know who, or what, that is? Remember back on the 24th of February 2010?   

ORLANDO, Fla. — A SeaWorld killer whale snatched a trainer from a poolside platform Wednesday in its jaws and thrashed the woman around underwater, killing her in front of a horrified audience. It marked the third time the animal had been involved in a human death.

The 3rd time ? The first two deaths weren't enough to close down the park? And now Tilikum is back .... what ? for a 4th kill? I'm not putting the blame on Tikikum. Its a wild animal, no matter what we think, no matter how many tricks he does, he's wild. And being wild they will sometimes revert to wild behavior. 


I really can't believe its being allowed back. Hey Sea World ! What's the magic number ? 4 ? 5 ? 6 ? I think Tilikum is trying to tell you something ... 

Ignorance is bliss

I remember not so long ago I didn't have ANY idea what the hell was going on in the world outside of MY world. 


And I liked it that way. The world went about its business and I went about mine.


Liquid lunches with friends, Saturday nights bar hoping in a black limo. Spending money on designer clothes, shoes and bags. Dinners that cost more then my rent. 


Then I grew up. I learned that there was a world beyond my eye sight. But this time I didn't like it that way. I learned people had problems. People died. People suffered. Animals became homeless, abused and killed. 


I learned people could be mean, violent and hateful. Neighbors stole and cheated. Co-workers stabbed you in the back whenever given the chance. The company you gave your all for could replace you in the blink of an eye without as much as a thank you. 


I guess the inter-net is mostly to blame for my "awakening". Hardly a day goes by when I'm not googling or blinging something or someone. Who am I kidding ... hardly and hour goes by ! 


Today was a particularly harsh news day. The Supreme Court sided with a bunch of sick-low-life-hateful-pathetic excuse for human beings. And a state wants to pass a bill that says someone is good enough to clean their toilets but other wise they don't need them. I paraphrase, but you get the idea. 


So is ignorance really bliss? Yes, sometimes. But most of the time I'm glad of this new grown up me. I (we) need to know what's going on in the world beyond our backyard. We need to be there and speak up for the injustice in the world. We need to fight for the weak. We need to stand up and say "NO, that's not right!". We need to know what's going on in the world so we can make a difference. 


Because if we don't who will? Them? 

After all, today is another day ...

Or something like that. So relationships are like the blue plate special, some days good, some days bad. But we keep going back hoping for a good day. And most of the time we get it.    

Relationships ...

Suck. 

The End. 

Ursula

Last week we had to let our sweet Ursula go. At 12 years old she had developed kidney failure. It's only the second time I had to let a pet go, and trust me, its does not get easier. Ettore and I stayed with her until the end. I thought the pain would get less intense as the days passed. But it hasn't.

I miss her in the morning at breakfast.

I miss her waiting for me in the evening.

I miss her bitchiness when I tried to pick her up.

I miss her fur all over the couch.

I miss her presence.

Have a safe journey sweetness and wait for me at the bridge.

Then what ?

I wake up, have breakfast, take a shower, get dressed, run for the bus.

Then what?

I ignore the remarks, I pretend the books don't hurt when they hit the back of my neck.

Then what?

I take my time suiting up for football, I hide in the locker room while the other boys take a shower.

Then what?

I stand in line while they push past me, I sit alone at lunch pretending I don't need friends.

Then what?

I walk home alone because I missed the bus while hiding from the class bully.

Then what?

I sit alone in my room while I hear the other kids play outside.

Then what?

I lie in bed as I hear the news from the TV in the living room tell of another teen taking his life.

Then what?

I fall asleep as the tears soak my pillow.

Then what?

I wake up ...

I look over at the man laying next to me. And a tear hits the pillow. I tear of joy.

I eat breakfast as the sun shines in.

I drive to work and think of the people in my life that I love, and love me.

I come home and kiss that man while he tells me about his day.

It does get better. But in between the agonizing bus rides, in between the hurtful remarks, in between the pushes, shoves and knock down drag out fights ... life happens.

The good that life can bring to you. The small glimpses of love and happiness is all there. The wonders that you have to offer. You may have to look harder for it, but its worth it.

That's what.

I dedicate this to all the teens that we have lost and to all the teens that we still have time to save.

To long

Wow ... it's been awhile since my last post. Where have I been? What has happened? Let me think about it and I'll get back to you, soon, I promise.